Monday was all about me being the independant female and I was all "well it's his loss, he doesn't know what he is giving up". Spent all day digging things up that I disliked about him, and realized that it wouldn't have worked regardless of what feelings were blowing around between us. On Tuesday there was still some of the independant woman thing going on, but as the day progressed I continued to slide down the muddy hill of "I am completely undesirable, even boy who I found 47 things wrong with doesn't find me attractive". The whole no chemistry thing is the excuse you use when you find someone replusive. A + B = I AM GOING TO DIE ALONE. That brings us to today. The independant woman is gone...just leaving Sad Girl. Hoping to buck up soon....but damn it....muddy hills are hard to climb back up!